Saturday, January 17, 2009
Crap. I'm starting to get really irritable again. And I don't know why. Was feeling absolutely fine during the holidays. Maybe it's just school. But 2 weeks of school and I become like that. I wonder what 10 weeks could do.
Well...I need to practice the guitar but I'm getting a little sick of it. Apparently I'm rushing like crap during the solo part but I can't feel it. My mind's not into the guitar anymore. And the weekends are reserved for anything that isn't guitar, i.e. piano, erhu, pipa. Bleh. And I still want to learn the violin. I biting more than I can chew. Sigh.
And I'm back to this friend issue again. I can't believe I think I don't have any friends just because I keep stoning on msn and no one talks to me. That's not what a friend is, right? And obviously it's my fault for not taking the initiative to talk. But I don't like the feeling of being snubbed and I have no idea how a conversation should start or end. People's relation. CLE teaches all the useless things and doesn't teach the useful ones. Yes, yes I know I have friends, just that things are starting to change and I'm not adpating fast enough. Sentimental freak.
I wish this world were just a game. Only that it's a bit to real to be true.
Wesley at
1:44 PM